Friday, March 16, 2007

A Letter To My Dad

Dear Dad,

In the last year my mind has been in turmoil thinking about you. There are so many unanswered questions. Like why would you tell Patience (one of my sisters) my life story and not tell my anything about her? Why did you only leave Patience money and not Nathan and I ? I thought that we were the closest. Well this lettter is my closure. In my dream, in your final moments, you called out to God and confessed that you were a sinner and you wanted to be forgiven. I pray that you are in heaven with my recently lost baby (your grandbaby) and the two of you are playing, laughing, and having a good time. Please hold her like you have never cuddled any baby before because I miss her so much. I know God Had a reason to take the two of you so soon but it is still very hard to come to terms with. After this letter I will turn it over to Him and let the Lord comfort me. I Love you daddy and I miss you!!!!

Greatly Missed
A Fathers touch, A Daddy's kiss,
A grieving Daughter, You're greatly missed.

An empty house, An empty chair,
A fathers love, No longer there.

A broken heart, Tear filled eye,
Another soul to fill the sky.

Many memories in my mind,
Some I laugh, Some I cry.

The times we shared, The laughs we had,
Things I miss when I think of you Dad.

Realizing that's all I have to hold on too,
Only memories, Of what once was you.

Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.

No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace.

The last hug, The last kiss,
The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish...

To have you Dad, here today,
Never to leave your Daughter this way.

A Father's touch, A Daddy's kiss,
A grieving Daughter, YOU'RE GREATLY MISSED!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Poems of Encouragement


Terrible sins come and go
But God will always love you so
Put your trust in Jesus Christ
And you will live a wonderful life

When things are at a terrible height
Don't give up without a fight
God will be there to hold your hand
And carry you across all lands

Lay down your life at the feet of the Lord
And you will feel as if you've soared
Let the Holy Spirit flow through you
And you'll live a life completely new
- A life of beauty and of grace
And a bright new life you will face

~Amanda O'Connor~



We read, we hear, we sing of Heaven,
No sorrows, no tears, no burdens to bear;
A Mansion to Saints, will be given,
But, what must it be, to be there?

No pain, no trials, no darkness of night,
There will be Praises lifted by Prayer;
We'll be with Jesus; He is the Light,
But, what must it be, to be there?

All will be Joy, Peace, and Love,
With never a disappointment nor care;
Somewhere, in that happy Home Above,
But, what must it be, to be there?

No sickness, no death, no evil to allure,
Our Faith here, will be Sight there;
In Heaven with Jesus, we'll rest secure,
But, what must it be, to be there?

The Bliss will someday, be complete,
When Saints meet Jesus in the air;
Then, we'll bow at His nail pierced feet,
But, what must it be, to be there?

Our loved ones, we again shall meet,
Victory and Praising Jesus, we'll share;
The Supper of The Lamb, we'll eat,
But, what must it be, to be there?

Leona I. Miller



A time came suddenly to bring us low,
With an illness at the evenings sunset;
We did not know the future of our lives,
God was not finished with us yet.

We are not given a Warranty in life,
Loved ones Prayed ~ no need to fret;
We leaned on Jesus for the Healing,
God was not finished with us yet.

We walked by Faith and trusted Him,
Many Prayed for us ~ we've not met;
We felt Prayers touch deep in our Souls,
God was not finished with us yet.

Beautiful colors etched the Western sky,
God painted a sunset we cannot forget;
We felt His Presence as we watched,
God is not finished with us yet.

He was with us in each lonely hour,
Jesus had lonely times but paid each debt;
In our weakness ~ Satan came to devour,
God is not finished with us yet.

We were kept strong so we could endure,
With God ~ all things are possible;
Health improved to restore which proves,
God is not finished with us yet.

Leona I. Miller



I keep busy through the daytime hours,
Trying hard, to live by God's Holy Word;
Trials and burdens, somehow, come,
It's then, I tend to ask, "Why me, Lord?"

The mountain is difficult for me to climb,
But, I'll climb and Obey God's Word;
He Promised to never leave me,
So, why do I ask, "Why me, Lord?"

His Word is a lamp unto my feet,
Sharper than any two-edged sword;
It is a light unto my path, and so,
I must not question, "Why me, Lord?"

God will not give more than I can bear,
I must keep my Faith strong in His Word;
Jesus endured shame, pain, suffering and death,
I must no longer ask, "Why me, Lord?"

Leona I. Miller


Have you spent this day.....alone?
Do you feel as if no-one cares for you?
Has no-one called you...via the phone?
And you long for Someone.....or two?

Others are so busy, with many things,
While you sit your rocking chair...
If others could only know what lowliness brings,
And how difficult it is, sometimes to bear.

A little bird comes to sit on the window sill,
And the Feathered Friend brightens your day,
God can send a little bird, as you seek His Will,
We know....God is only a Prayer away.

Our God works in mysterious ways,
And now, you find a smile upon your face,
As the little bird sunshine rays,
You are so loneliness, God did erase.

Peace...has come into your heart, this day,
And no longer feel alone,
For the little bird God sent you...kneel and Pray,
You no longer find any purpose to groan.

God, in His Wisdom, looks down from Above,
And He will often send a little bird,
This is one way...He sends His Love,
To let you know...your Prayer...He Heard.

Leona I. Miller, California



Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Psalm 30:5.

Dark the storm doth rage around me,
Long the night with fear assail thee,
But the Lord of light is there
To brighten our night of care.
All through the night I wonder and cry,
And ask myself and God the reason why
Such a storm of darkness came my way,
And when the darkness shall turn to day.
It is not for me to know the reasons,
Nor to discern God’s times and seasons.
For in each season of life God has a plan;
It is for me to leave all in His hand.
The Lord of light is good and kind,
In Him grace and strength you will find,
To meet the darkness all through the night,
And find mercy new every morning dawning bright.
Gene Griffin


Words often seem like little things
And yet they mean so much
Depending on the use of them
Can hurt or cheer one up

How often do you choose your words
With caution and great care
Or, do you speak them carelessly
Not thinking, unaware

Of how they cut and mutilate
The pain goes deep within
Because we see the use of words
As dust blown in the wind

Scattered here and scattered there
To hurt the one who may
Without a thought, so innocently
Happen in the way

Now this is not intentional
Oh, No! we wouldn’t dare
To be so thoughtless to our friends
That would be quite unfair

Remember words are precious
A Treasure to employ
For spreading among those we greet,
much happiness and joy

By Sharon Elaine Carpenter
© Copyright BECP Ministries

Follow ME

I used to walk down a sinful road
a road that led to heartache and woe.

My worldly views were what I had
no peace of mind could I find.

Then one day I cried in despair
and that's when the Master called unto me.

Come my child and look up to Me
I want to cleanse you and set you free.

For I died on a tree so you could be free
and now you can see what Heaven will be.

So reach out and trust Me and together we'll find
a new life, a new road, and a new home with Thee.

For the freedom of Heaven is joyful with Me
so don't hesitate today to come unto Thee.

The road may be narrow but what you will find
is peace, love, and joy that is truly sublime.

Then you will see how lovely Heaven will be
when you take up your cross and follow Me.

Carolyn Porter

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Cabin Fever and Depression Go Hand In Hand

I have everthing going for me but I have the cabin fever blues.
Let me count my blessings...

  1. I have a God that loves me no matter what.
  2. God has blessed me with a a wonderful husband.
  3. Jesus Christ has blessed me with 6 children so far.
  4. Christ has blessed me with a wonderful church family.
  5. I have sister in Christ that love me and I can tell anything to.
  6. We food for our bellies.
  7. We have a roof over our heads.
  8. We have a running truck.
  9. I am enrolled in a study course to better my life and the livies of all in my family.
  10. I have a Beth Moore book on CD coming.
So why am I so blue? I prayed for wisdom in this area but I feel as if God is not listening. Maybe I am not listening to him in some area of my life. While I work this out I found a poem I want to share.

When turmoil smeems to hold full sway
And the ruler of the day,
I'll open up my heart and find
That God with peace can ease my mind. ~Hess

Monday, March 12, 2007

Very Thankful!!!!

I know I had mentioned in my first post about our truck smacking into a tree. Well when I hit the ice patch I thought I could turn the steering wheel sharp or try to hit the brakes. Well at the very moment that I hit the ice a car was passing me. So turning the steering wheel was out. So I tried to hit the brakes as hard as I could but I still slid right into that strong maple tree. Here is why I am thankful...

  • God worked it all out for His good .
  • My truck did not go over an embankment and explode
  • The car that was passing me rescued me, her name is Sheila
  • My pastor and Sheila's husband pulled my truck out
  • I got to witness to Sheila
I saw Sheila in the store and got to tell her that everything is going great! I praise God for that night. It is hard to see when it is happening but it will work out for the good of God.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Learn from the old & welcome the new.

At the start of this year a bunch of bad things happened in a very short time period. My oldest daughter (13) were fighting and she put her hand through a glass door. My hubby and I were fighting and I took our truck for a drive. I was on my way to our church but on a road I did not know, I hit an ice patch and then I smacked right into a Vermont maple tree. I was pregnant and told I was going to have a miscarriage. Then my grandma told me that she was not going to bring my 2 boys (from my 1st marriage) out to Vermont this summerfrom California. After all that I went into the hospital because I wanted to take my own life (sad but I was blaming God for all of it). But now here's the bright side of it all. I have learned I have a husband that can not live without me, I have a church family that loves me so much, and it's not God's fault.
I came home from the hospital on my 31st birthday and things just keep getting better and better.

I am now a student after being out of school for 15 years now. I am studing to be a writer of childrens books. Before I had the miscarriage I had wanted to be a labor and delivery nurse. Once I lost the baby, I realized that I could not deal with other women losing their babies so I told my hubby I wanted to write childrens books. So I am doing a work at home course. Plus he and I are going to a marriage conference that the church is paying for. Plus we will get a date night while we are away, which we have not had since I was pregnant with our 3 year. My hubby also signed me up for a Beth Moore online course. There are so many great things happening in my life and I am so happy about all of them.

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